God is a woman

Thank you for all your love and support. You have shown me how important I am to everyone around me.
I need you to understand one thing for me please.

There is a girl, waiting, she doesn’t know what for.
She’s waiting for her life to change.
She questions the point of living every day…

It’s not just an empty feeling, she’s in pain, but she never gives up, she never loses hope.
She keeps herself going, but in every moment, everything around her, works against her.
She’s not just tired, she’s exhausted, she’s questioning the point of it all.

She’s been hurt, abused, harassed, bullied, judged, taken advantage of.
She has been destroyed, watched herself shatter.
Built herself back up, piece by piece, she’s put herself back together.

And then, once she thinks she’s all okay.
She trusts again, loves again, she’s scared of getting hurt again, but there she is, being as strong as she possibly can.

Putting others before herself, that’s what good girls do.
And that’s why they break, so easily, and so often.

They give you everything they can possibly give you.
Just because making others happy means so much more to them than making themselves happy.

Her huge heart and her efforts to do good by everyone around her,
get’s taken advantage of, she knows this,
she’s seen and done it all before, she knows it drains everything out of her.

She fell in love … again
Now she’s heartbroken … again
A woman is now in pain but has to hold it all back … again

Every time she’s opened up or reached out for help.
Her sadness and her anger has affected everyone around her.
If she goes down, all that is around her goes down too.
She keeps her problems to herself, or else she becomes the problem.

She rebuilds herself, she’s made herself stronger, tells herself, I can do this on my own.
Now she’s hurting more than ever, but she knows what she NEEDS to do.

She wants to be dead, so in a way that she does not need to suffer anymore.
She needs to be her best.
Stay strong, stay beautiful, stay caring and keep loving.
She loves the love feeling, but hates being in love.
She wants to stay the fuck away from love, but keeps looking for it.

She’s waiting for just one person, to pick her up, and not only help her but to fix her.
She needs someone to understand her pain, maybe feel her pain for her.
She needs someone to love and care for her more than she has ever in her whole lifetime.
Seems impossible

She needs you… show her that love is real!
Love is everything

Appreciate that love, it’s too special to let go.
Once you let it go, you will never get it back.

Someone who loves you, loves you for a reason.
It’s a gift we should be more grateful for.

I love you so so much
Laura xoxo

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